im blogging cause ppl ask me to blog.

so this week on monday had campcraft meeting then played soccer with nabil, shalihin and shafiq. then had campcraft training on tuesday and thursday. then on tuesday night had dikir barat training. its very tiring. today went to school after prayers to check the logistics and see the seniors get n levels results. the results this year was not bad. putra was already freaking out as he needs to work hard to match this years n levels results. then slack at np room while waiting for xinyu.

being campcraft captain is no easy job. A lot of task needed to do. and its very hard to gain support from various ppl. I still need to tell some ppl that they are out of the team. and one more thing that always happen in np or should i say ug is conflict management. I hope campcraft doesnt affects my studies cause its o level year next year.

the holidays are boring. staying at home is killing me. luckily i made new friends from Vietnam trip. i want to go out but i dont know who to go out with. something that hasnt change from the last holiday till now is that i still go out with putra but he is busy most of the time.

next week ill be out everyday. yay!
Monday - campcraft comp meeting at 6 pm. so ill be free in the morning and afternoon
Tuesday - campcraft comp training in the morning
Wednesday - doing the Vietnam trip pictures PowerPoint slide. the whole day.
Thursday - campcraft comp training and English project. the whole day
Friday - ill always go out on Fridays.

I'm back from Vietnam!
Vietnam was great. Although certain stuff happened which was sad but there are god stuffs that happened too. we lose some we gain some. i miss the scenery and the kids in Vietnam. Being in Vietnam made me realise how thankful i am being a Singaporean. I'm just too lazy to elaborate the time i had in Vietnam so just look at the pictures on fb.

after everything settled down. i tried to fit myself in into other people's life. but i dont seem to fit in. Everyone has found their own comfort zone. so its hard for me to find new friends to be close with. You have moved on and found new friends. After seeing you so happy with them there was a tinge of jealousy and hatred. Day by day it grew stronger. i still haven't found friends that i was close with. Because of u i had to go to all the trouble finding new friends. i had to regain their trust. keeping this feeling inside for a very long time is bad cause i can pop anytime. well i did. I'm sorry if i hurt u. well i dont see a point of letting u go while i suffer.

The holidays have arrived. im not really looking forward for the holidays. i just want it to end faster. Well holidays is the time where we spend time with our family and friends. This November/December holidays would be one of the loneliest holidays i would ever have. well looking at brighter side. There will be the Vietnam trip during the holidays. Its only 7 days.

This Friday I'll be off to Ubin for STC. I'll come back on Sunday. Then on Tuesday I'll be flying off to Vietnam and coming on monday, 30/11/09. then there will be campcraft comp training every week and Dikir Barat training every week. that's basically it for my holidays.

Campcraft comp. I'm for the boys team. Its really very hard work. I keep cocking up no matter what i do. I get blame for every mistake that happens. people expect me to know everything. but nobody is telling me anything. what happen when i was 1st i/c for cca open house happened again. Everything is planned behind my back. and evryone is not contacting me and i get blame when i dont know anything. And my team is not listening to me. well i feel like stepping down but i will embarass myself. I was made a fool just now. Thanks to the person who only told me to come to new foyer at 945 and suppose to tell me that there is a training.

its been a long time since i last posted.
This week im having AEM (Advance Elective Module). My course is Fundamentals of Hospitality & Tourism Business. I have to go to Temasek polytechnic for 1 whole week. I get to skip school but i dont want to skip school. I would rather attend the boring post exam activities with my friends. Because of this i am not able to make it for tha HIT/NCO course (luckily i nvr really do proposals). But looking at the brighter side, AEM is fun. I get to learn new things and go on excursions. I have to finish the AEM field study. details of AEM will be posted later.

today's post has three part the everyday life part and the depressing part 1 and 2.

Well the everyday life part. today had maths paper in the morning paper 1 and 2. it was f-ed up. I didnt complete it. Why must i get distracted at the wrong times. I got distracted for my eoys cause of some reasons. But nevermind just hoping to pass and move on to sec 4. If i was not distracted im already aiming for A1s and getting top 5 position in class (bloody hell). i dont think i can maintain 5th position.
after school went to play soccer with shafiq, qamarul, nabil and many more. I scored the opening goal. Baik cap! then while playing shafiq haron fell. he broken/fractured his arm. ouch. reminds me of the time that i fractured my wrist in primary school while playing soccer. but his is worst. sent him to the clinic near street soccer court. the doctor asked him to go straight to the hospital. so luqman called his father. while waiting for his father, nabil and me went for the obs medical checkup.im going obs again! Then his father came and brought him to the hospital. After the medical checkup qamarul nabil and syafiq asked me to follow them for jalan raye. finally someone asked. they were talking about the jalan raye for the whole week and alot of ppl were asked to come. they dont really ask me out or ask anything nowadays. i hope i can be close to them cause...

The second part of the post.
I know that u'll feel guilty sooner or later. if i were to be sadistic ill let u feel guilty. but im not really that sadistic. but im still a little bit. Joking joking. cause i know the hurting really hurts. and i dont want to feel the hurt anymore. im not the person who only care for myself and dont care about others ( its not about you, its about someone else). The reason why i write on my blog is cause i dont have anyone to talk to. i try talking to someone but he just take it for granted. whats important to him is only u know what, other than that he doesnt really care. just give me sometime. so lets move on and leave the past behind.